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He claimed that he was the best man I had ever been with. That was a lie because he was the only man that was very abusive to me in any of my relationships. My first husband cheated and made a baby during our marriage, so he believed because he did not make any babies on me. That he was the best man ever. The problem was that he did cheat on me. I found proof of his affairs online but he believed because I did not see physical action that he was not cheating. I read all the messages of the multiple women he was cheating with.
Now… I cannot blame him for everything that went wrong in our marriage. As you can see, I did have a big mouth. I spoke my mind and I was not afraid of him. The problems I had in our marriage were not with him. It was with myself. I did not believe in my own abilities enough to believe I was enough all by myself. I allowed myself to go through the ugliness he was putting me through. He had no job and had not helped with any bills at the home for over two years. When he did pay a bill like water or cable or lights. It was when they got shut off. I knew better, but I wanted to be a wife so badly that I allow myself to throw away my standards. After viewing these videos about three times. I had decided to hold myself accountable by sharing the videos with others who knew me well and who would not let me fall short like that again. It was a very tough decision to make. But I wanted out of the marriage and I needed to free myself. I knew just how charming and manipulative he could be and I needed to come out of that trap I was in. Ladies I am sharing my experiences with you to show you that you are not alone and if I can become free; so can you.